Empty? Maybe.

Langit hari ini bener-bener ngegambarin keadaan aku. Seharian jalan tapi pikiran gak tau kemana. Kalo gak mau ngelamun ya baca novel sampe subuh. Bangun jam 6 dan gak tidur lagi. Begitu terus setiap harinya. Aku juga aneh sebenernya aku kenapa akhir-akhir ini. Galau? Ngga juga sih. Kecengan jadian? Peduli amat ya. Kenal aja kaga. Belakangan udah males banget les. Tiap lagi diterangin tuh cuma setor muka. Tapi gak ngerti gurunya ngmg apa gara-gara pikiran kosong. Ya Allah sebenernya kenapa lah ini.. Sering juga ngedapetin diri sendiri nangis tiba-tiba tanpa sebab. Kadang cuma netesin air mata tapi kadang suka sampe sengguk-senggukan.
   Mungkin aku belum berhasil ngebenerin diri aku. I do laugh at school. Laugh too much malah. Dan.... I Like nobody. Okeh i lie. Is it love when you just cant stop smiling listen to his words? Is it love when you look so happy when he comments your creepy-jokes? Is it love when you dream about him almost everyday and you look so pinky when you know he come earlier than you? Is it love? Ah. Actually semuanya udah cukup sih. Nyayangin diri sendiri aja gak becus berani-beraninya suka sm yg lain. Oh crap i aleays find Adore's lyrics walking on my mind

"I dont mean to run but every time you come around i feel more alive than ever. And I guess its too much MAybe we're too young And I dont even know what's real but i know i never wanted anything so bad i've never wanted anyone so bad"


True love comes on an exact time for the exact guy. At least when you decide to fall in love with somebody and you blame yourself that watching his smile is more than enough for you, you do know and everyone knows it's a lie. No one can't feel jealous feeling and an eager to owning somebody and being their part when they fall in love. And True love is the one you don't need to act like you're sweet instead nuts you're silly instead you know everything better than him you dress girly instead you dress like a cucumber. You know? When you're with someone who loves you for who you are, they won't get angry if you dont dress well, if you act crazily. They will adapt with your life, they will complete you and never commentating your true self. Believe or no, true love will be on yourside even in your worst condition, and even if you're an ugly betty.

And those words which always keep reminding me to Fall in love too early, instead being a friend and sharing life. I'm just too young, haha.