Um, skills

I'm planning on stopping my english course by the end of the year. Actually I do know that I'm still so much lacking in vocabs and phrasal verbs (plis pisan hese ini teh) but i'm trying my best in this 3 months. Alhamdulillah my english's certificate's score is improving yaaay! And.... you know what....... I feel that I'm older than my age.

I dunno but, I label myself as a hard-thinker, eh what should it get called? I plan everything for my future too much. So when I'm failed at some tests I will get stressed. Sounds too much, eh? But that's the truth. I blame myself too often for the things i don't responsible. The thing is, i don't want to disappoint my parents again.

Okay, stop writing about that.

Actually, I was planning on posting about writing-skills. So let's begin.

Lately I've always checked someone's tumblr that contains her daily activities in the US. And also I've read some posting on tumblr about #15harimenulisdiblog. And I'm like.......... Geez. Me, myself, compare to them, is not even a zero point 6783257853278 :((( I feel desperate.

Some of them inspire me, a lot. Because their writing skills are awesome. Incredibly talented. You have to know that I also want to be a writer about anything that worth to be read. But looking at my writing skills, that sounds, impossible.

I can't focus on one thing too long. I stop whenever I get bored.

I give up whenever I think i don't make it. When the fact is, I haven't made it.

I love reading my own postings, through the older one, seeing whether I've made some improvements or not. But, some of them are just too boring to be read. yes, I got bored with my own writing. I don't blame others if they don't like reading mine, because myself just don't like it either. Maybe my vocabulary is so much lacking. And I don't make it sounds 'real' and 'alive'.

I love it, when I just spend why whole afternoon by sitting in front of pc and listen to John Mayer (Oh yes, tomorrow he's having his 34th birthday!!!) and fill my blog. Or scrolling Tumblr until page 51623471 HAHAHA. Idk i love tumblr so much idk what would my life be without it, beside I haven't watched Abduction and Im so sad i could take a shower in my neighbor's bathroom. omg no.

So I have this good friend of mine, named Faikar. Once he ever said to me that he is not interested in cyber networks but now, you can visit his blog by yourself. His writings, or postings on blog entertain people. I love to read it again and again even if it hurts my stomach so much. You have to meet him in person, because when i was at 8 grader, the first time I knew him, he already made a deep impression. Eventhough sometimes he got bullied by my other friends, but yet it still entertained me HAHA, idk watching him in pain is just an interesting thing. Especially when his shoes got thrown to the roof top HAHAHA. Okay, so in short, I think Faikar has this ability to be a good writer. And i bet his books will be so worth to read.

That's it, now I'm trying to write as many stories as I can and read them all over again to find out whether I make some good improvements or not. But the exam week hasn't been over yet so.... lalalala. Idk I'm predicting that my report book will be a piece of crap lol.

Happy weekends everyone!

Less than three,

Nisa.